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February 07, 2010
worst day of the week. @ 7:43 AM
was really fucking pissed off today.
i went to Wavehouse event today.
i reached there at 7.
we waited till 11.30++
most of us is still not in.
as?
last min they say..
Abv 18 party.
most of us was fucking pissed off.
after 5hrs of waiting.
finally..
left me & my sister haven't go in.
so? yea. its our turn to head in.
we get the green band from others
who were leaving.
wore theirs.
then we try to get in.
i was excited to go in.
as its my 1st time clubbing (:
but guess what?.
go there... tio check..
they tore off our bands.
& scolded us.
i was really fucking pissed already
they made it worst.
so?
they asked me & my sister.
alot of rubbish questions.
-This is Our conversation -
Bouncers : why are you both doing this?
show me our ids.
Me & Charlene : Don't have..
Charlene : Mine Lost & My sister's de at friend's
Bouncers : i don't believe yours lost.
why today everyone all said their ic lost?
Charlene : really lost ma. due to carelessness.
Bouncers : how old are you both?
Me : i am 18 this year. (: *i smiled.
-Charlene Smiled too.-
Bouncers : let me ask you again..
How old are you?
Me : i am really 18.
erm.. ok la. i am 18 this year (:
Bouncers : so. you are 17.
can't you wait for 1 more year to come here?
Do you think its worth cheating to get in?
Me : yes its worth :DD
Bouncers, getting pissed off. : worth uh?
do you need me to call the police?
-in my head-
-can't wait for 1 more year of cos.
becos maybe tml i die. so worth it-
Me : call police uh? erm. anything lo?
Bouncers : you sure?
Me : anything de. (:
Bouncers : i giving you a chance.
i don't want to see you both wandering around
MY AREA.
go anywhere you want.
but not here.
ok?
Charlene : Orh. kays.. ._.
Me : Stare & ignore him.
Bouncers : how bout you?
Me : don't know.
Charlene Cuts in : uhhh she will come with me.
after that. we hang there for while.
then left..
we walk towards 7~11.
as i was walking.
the Bouncers looked at us.
so? yea.
i shouted..
" WaveHouse Suck Cock! "
i point middle finger.
& walked off. Lol :x
after that this guy..
brought for us beers.
we went to the beach & drink..
i drank one can only.
as i know ._.
i can't take much.
if not i will go more mad then usual.
so i stopped. (:
me , Charlene & the guy.
slacked at the beach.
until 4+ till our friends come out.
speaking of friends.
most of them are friendly (:
i think all of them are friendly.
but yea. some are flirts :x
but overall fine .
after that when they came out.
they told us one of their friends.
vomit blood.
alot things.
so we got worried.
but he rest awhile.
& felt much better.
so.. yea..
saw the girls came back.
with so so so~~
many bowls of maggy mee.
they place it on the table.
all of them busy finding their food.
then settle down & eat like hungry pigs :D
after while.
i don't know what got into me.
i walked to the ending ..
& sit by the sea.
than my head starts to hurt.
& began talking again..
talking to "her"
"she" said alot hurtful things..
i was trying my best to ignore.
but "she" just got louder & louder.
"she" is following me..
i walked back to the place they were slacking.
i didn't know why..
i just went there..
took my bags. & just want to go home.
after that some guys & my sister stopped me.
& asked me what happened.
but i don't understand why i can't reply them.
i kept on seeing "her" looking at me.
looking really angry..
angry at me..
i was scared..
i didn't tell them.
they pulled me back.
so i sit down on the chair.
& yea.
"she" stood bout...
maybe 2hands away from me
"she" started to laugh.
& talk to me.
putting hurtful thoughts in my head.
stabbing right through my heart.
i broke down. & cried.
i kept on begging "her" to stop saying.
"she" kept on laughing & just continued.
my head feels like its going to blow anytime.
its too much for me.
i am trying my best to move on.
but "she" stopping me.
"she" is trying to make me,
live in the past.
live in hurt & sadness.
i screamed.
something..
forgotten what.
i don't know what's wrong.
i thought i am cured.
but i was wrong..
very wrong..
it got worst (:
but not as bad as last time.
i went so mad..
till my emotions don't know what to do.
i kept on laughing & crying
& anger bout things.
i don't know how to control.
so "she" do it for me.
"she" is making me suffer.
i am too stressed & depressed.
i hate myself so much.
i didn't want it to happen.
but it happened.
i tried..
i tried to be the girl..
the girl 2years back.
but i can't anymore.
i thought i could.
i thought so..
but i was wrong!
i was very very wrong.
he told me needs time.
i gave him.
but he hurts me.
i moved on..
did i really moved on?
i don't know..
i am so so tired & stressed.
pissed of with so much things.
too much to worry bout.
i don't know what to do..
i made my sister cry.
cause she was so scared.
quite a number of friends.
comforted me.
trying their best to chase "her" away.
after some thoughts
i just calm down.
& went back to normal.
not normal ba.
back to abnormal state.
but not depression state (:
so. yea. they worry lesser.
cause they got their own problems too.
but overall.
i find all of them is really nice.
& caring..
we slacked till the sun raise.
we took the bus out of sentosa.
then took a taxi home (:
so to cut it short for this post..
i was bounce really hard out of Wavehouse.
than. went drinking..
than depression mode.
and than home (:
hahaha.
hope you enjoy my post.
i gg KO.
gonna sleep (:
wan an people.
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